My Last Year of Being 40..ish!

Knowing others is intelligence, knowing yourself is true wisdom. Mastering others is strength. Mastering yourself is true power. Lao Tzu

For my birthday, I want to answer these 41 questions of self-awareness. I will just add 8 more questions to complete my age of 49. OK? Game.

1. How would you define life? Life is doing what you love the most and being happy and contented of what you have.

2. What’s your definition of success? Success is being a better person and doing what you loving what you do.

3. What would you do if you knew you would not fail? Just go for it.

4. Which of your skills or talents give you the greatest sense of pride? Painting.

5. What’s the best advice you’ve ever received? Just don’t mind what others think.

6. What would your ideal career consist of? Just doing what you are best in.

7. What is your greatest accomplishment so far? My three wonderful kids.

8. Which one factor has had the greatest positive influence in your life? Perseverance.

9. Which one factor has had the greatest negative influence in your life? Please people.

10. Who and where do you want to be 2-3 years from now? Still here in the province. Teaching art classes.

11. If you had no financial obligations, what job would you most desire? Teaching.

12. What do you do better than most people you’ve come met or know? Paint I guess.

13. If you had children, which of your existing habits would you like to see your children adopt? Which would you not like them to adopt?

I got three kids. They adopted my artistic side. I’m a bit obsessive compulsive. I hope they don’t got that from me.

14. What can you do for a long period of time without getting bored? Paint. Write.

15. What do you know for sure? Success is not just being what you want to be. It includes luck, too.

16. What’s the biggest risk you’ve taken? Choosing between love and family.

17. How do you think differently now than 6 years ago and why do you think this way now? Six years ago, I am patient. Now I’m super patient. Kids are growing up. And I teach small kids. Patience is my weapon.

18. Which of your senses do you use the most? Sense of sight.

19. What are the things you’ve done that you never knew you could do? Self-portrait.

20. What activities make you happy? Teaching the kids, painting and writing.

21. Why do different people from different part of the world live, behave , think and aspire differently? Different cultures and perspective, I guess.

22. What one activity can drastically improve your life today? Giving.

23. How are your beliefs today different from 6 years ago and why? Nothing much have changed.

24. How would you describe yourself? Funny.

25. How would others describe you? Hmm? Funny too.

26. If you were to die tomorrow, what would be your biggest regret? Not doing everything I wanted.

27. If you could do anything in the world what would it be? Save the earth. Even if it’s impossible.

28. What do you want to know more about? The outer space.

29. What are your short term goals? I can’t think of right now.

30. What are your long term goals? Just for kids to grow up well.

31. Who do you admire greatly and why? My husband. He’s my inspiration, really.

32. How do you spend your time? Blogging. Painting.

33. What do you know now that you wish you knew 5 years ago? That I can really nail an artwork and sold it.

34. Do you believe you can create or influence your future? Definitely yes.

35. What do you need to start doing now that will draw you close to your dream future? Just do what your heart desires.

36. What traits will greatly aid you in achieving your goals? Patience.

37. Do you believe anything is possible? Yes, definitely.

38. What quality do you admire the most about yourself? Being patient.

39. If you had a magic wand, how would your life be better in 3 months? Find a cure to COVID-19. That’s all we need now.

40. What scares you the most? COVID-19.

41. If you only have 5 minutes more to live, who will you call and what will you say? My husband. To say I love him more than he ever knew.

Bonus Questions:

42. What makes me sad? When my kids are sick.

43. What makes me happy? When I help. When my kids are healthy.

44. What makes me angry? I hate mess.

45. What things do I value in life? Respect. Love. Loyalty.

46. What makes me afraid? Sickness.

47. What type of friend am I? Easy to get along with.

48. What’s the best day you’ve had so far? My birthday today.

49. What does the word “self-love” mean to you? We must first love ourselves first, to love others whole heartedly.

Need I say more?






Don’t Look at Z

Don't Look at Z

“Don’t Look at Z, i’m the star here for today!” (hahaha)

Nobody believes me (the ones who don’t really knew me) when i say my age. When i say 42, they start saying, “what? what do you eat? how do you maintain to be looking younger than your age? what’s your secret?” So, whenever italians ask for my age, i just say i’m 30. they don’t ask questions anymore.

i would say i’m not really a fashion freak, until my daughter becomes a model here in Italy.  i’m just a casual type: jeans-t-shirt-sneaker kind of girl. i don’t wear make-up, heels and dress. i’m chubby, i’m tiny, and i’m lazy to really dress up. But now, i’m trying my best to at least look good. I am learning, i am mingling.
Being a mom who always need to accompany Zendra on her shootings, auditions and castings, people will start to look at you too. (because you’re the mom). They compliment Z for being so “cute”, “lovely” and “a doll”, and i expect them to stare at me after. You can’t help it. Z doesn’t look exactly like me. She got her chinita eyes from her dad. I will just take the “charm” from me, hahaha!

Wala nang kokontra. bida muna si mudra!

No Pain, No Gain

during my high school days, i’m the tiny, skinny one. everytime i see my old fotos i just laugh. it seems i’m not eating anything!
my first pregnancy didn’t make me fat. i was weighing 42 kilos then, then after a year, i was weighing 38 kilos. then, came my second son, i was weighing 48 kilos! after a year, i was weighing 50 kilos! oh my! i was too lazy to exercise and too busy eating! hahaha.then, came my third baby, my only daughter. i was weighing (for the love of god!) — 52 kilos! my waistline was 31 inches. it sure is not a good sight. I am only 4″10″ in height. more kilos and i can be compared to a barrel. =)
after birth the weighing scale keeps on telling 52 or 53 kilos. diet is not in my vocabulary. when we had our philippine vacation 2 months ago and heard stories of many of my known friends died so early.
the usual killer: heart attack! (high blood pressure)
that is so dreadful. my family have a heart condition history. my mom’s mother, my aunt, my cousins, etc. : all dead. so even eating native foods back home is a luxury, i give some limits to them.
i certainly didn’t gain weight during my stay back in the philippines. (buti naman)
after a week that we came back here in Milan, i decided to really watch out about my health. i’m 40! i’m not getting any younger. Diet is a struggle, but i hope i could start by getting fit.
September 2011: current status: 53 kilos, waistline 30inches

friends who saw me for the last 3 months is asking: “Uy, payat mo na ah, ano’ng ginawa mo?” 
 I started jogging by september 2011 during weekdays (except when it rains). I used to have 15-20 minutes in the park jogging and sweating. I’m not really thinking of being instantly slim. My real goal is to stay fit first. i’m not jogging now anymore. Kids go to school earlier and i have work now in the morning, and of course it’s getting so cold and dimmer in the park. ayoko na nga, baka ma rape pa ako dun, hehehe.
Honestly, i’m not obsessed of what is bad or good to eat. Even the greasiest food can still fit into a diet, as long as it’s properly moderated. Eating hamburgers and french fries with mayonaise once or twice a month is not that bad. If i avoided what i want to eat, i will just crave for them more. Ang sarap kumain ha.
The truth is, we have no weighing scale in the house. So, i just calculate how much i weigh. Once month, i just test-weigh where i work. Mas nakaka conscious if everyday kang mag titimbang di ba?

my father use to say, “eat like a queen during breakfast”, so from childhood until now, i’m used to eating heavy breakfast: that means rice is a just, otherwisenginig na ako ng 10am pag di ako kumain. i still eat heavy in the morning because it’s the start of the day, need to work, run to school for the kids, cook dinner. i can survive without eating lunch, until 2 or 3pm. some crackers for snack or kahit ano lang “tsitsirya” oks na. by dinner, i only eat bread with ulam. no-rice policy at night.
When you find you’re slipping back from the diet mentality, keep yourself busy. watch tv, film, listen to music, write something. I just write blogs and never noticing i’ve been writing for hours and not eating anything. Calling friends or being with them is another one. Laughing burns calories as well. that’s true!
By this means i eat everything i want, even abundantly. 2 days is not a big deal to stuff myself with baci or snickers chocolates or eat rice 3 times/day. it’s my policy: don’t super suffer yourself!
September 2012: current status: 45 kilos, waistline 26inches
I’ll maintain some chubs though. Oks na yan. Thanks for the compliments, fans! =)